EAT GREEN, EAT GRASS!

Store Bought Confidence

to make up for the lack of,
and the sourness for 'keep trying'.

I thought it was pricey.

chill-

Just got to find yourself,
in this broken dream.

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How do you spread yourself so thin and run for power and highest honor?

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15 minutes;
to decide the future and on.

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Dear Unhappiness,
Where did you say you'd go?
I knew you'd be back some day.

chill-

Because Passion Brings No Glory

and purposes;
and ways to make life better
even if it means some reluctant release.

chill-

I'm looking for places,

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I'm throwing you parts of upset
and making you guess; maybe
it's part of being discouraged
and feeling overstimulated.

Suddenly, I'll put you in familiarity again;
the shiny, the sharp and broken by the blade.
Beneath my veins I watch your screaming,
and I wish you regrets eternal.

chill-

Appalled by your naivety, and the manner in which you are so full of yourself.
I am disgusted - especially at the childishness of your sacarsm.

It's not ascertained that nothing you do is unappreciated,
but by the way you are acutely self absorbed;
I believe you'd die for recognition.

Having failed more than once dude, you have no place in this.

chill-

Is that a broken heart scrawled on the canvas of uncertainty?

From the crayon betwix the fingers of a child spills a wave of
understanding, or a kind of pain so mature and unfriendly;
yet beneath the oily scribble there is a sadness belonging to
a non sophisticated and naive disposition.

chill-

I heard a tiny voice behind my head,
'shut up and move along, this means so much to you.'

chill-

We'll count to a thousand and find a place with victory.

chill-

The notion of mistrust is lasting.

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It's been a long time, and I feel like I've peaked;
stalled at a shitload of trash, not able to perform
the simplest of skills despite my trying.

Maybe I am discouraged.

There isn't any potential I can tap on at this point
that'd push me ahead with motivation, that I once had
which set me goals I failed to achieve.

I'm sick of being a loser and watching demonstrations
of what I really want to attain yet never seem to posses
even an ounce of talent.

I always am self-assured by optimism and hope that is
in vain. Not anymore, because quitting isn't an option
beneath the taboo list, anymore.

I guess, when you want to trade passion for success.

School's back, and I'm pretty bored. =/

chill-

Out The Glass Through A Distance

to where we'd be someday.

chill-

We'll Have Breakfast In Bed

and toothbrushes in breakfast!

chill-

That's What We Came Here For

YMCA, body rock and twistin' seem like pleasant ways to better
gross motor skills, creativity and learn... well, English. ;)

chill-

At The End, It's Back To Where We Began

I guess it is an after all that we have to finally return to
where we came from, or for that matter where we belong; the
way we sang with conviction about attractions that have been
dull till the landing after two weeks of dust, traffic and
mosquitoes enhance the inner patriot we don't quite fail to
conceal. It's a 'thanks, but it should be'; taking the shelter
for granted.

I put in a plenty but I gained a general infinite lesson,
coupled by a million little things that make the world a
genuinely better place. Maybe, I have goals now.

I hate to admit it, but Freddy was right. It's either the business or
my grades. At this point in time, I hate to say the business
matters more to me than the grade AD I never achieved.

You know, I am seeking to improve my Mandarin. Haha.

chill-

Man Took Salvation Upon Himself

Would you rather not believe in what God did,
that we have salvation?

chill-

No Fishing

Don't eat fish.

I have thoughts.
Killing animals for consumption suddenly took a toll on my empathy.
Such feelings attacked last week after a discussion about how we get
our meat; chicken, fish, pork, beef. I think my favorite meat is beef.
I like it rare; medium rare.

I went vegetarian for three weeks once for the same compassionate
reasons. It discontinued when my grandfather spooned a slice of fish
into my bowl at dinner and I couldn't refuse.

Ginger nuts! I'm thinking too much, and contemplating vegetarian
- for good this time. Either lacto-ovo-vegetarian or a flextarian;
the latter because my doctor said I lack iron when I went meatless
the last round. And don't quite want to take iron pills. Or maybe
pesco-vegetarian for the occasional zinc and omega three.
Hmm.

I get upset when I think of the chicken that squawked and bled to death.

chill-

Behind Bright Eyes

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Get Up And Go

Tears fell like bullets, and summer blazed;
hair browned from toil, fuzzed from abuse.
Yet the only emotion that plagued her tiny
heart was the silence that emerged from sadness,
more specifically guilt - deemed the worst
category of upset to exist, it seldom died
away quickly. This time comfort stood near
and pointed to the sky which beamed the blue
upon their minds; it was the calm. She said
you are strong.

I got up, and I went.

chill-

How It Feels To Touch

When the obstacles fell, they stood knotted by the mess.
It was for the together; yet only she would understand. =)

chill-

The Same Feelings

By different people.

Chill-

If You Wander Off Too Far, My Love Will Get You Home.

If you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home.

If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone.
Get back on your feet and think of me,
my love will get you home.

chill-

She Smiled, I Made A Friend. And A Whole Load Of Bull.

In the picture: Kelin and Snowee

I guess it got me thinking about how easy you define friendship
and it made 'friend' lose value because the way you associate
acquaintance with eye contact, a polite smile to making new
friends, is so cheap - as how you think every smile affirms a
new friend relationship; I think it degrades the exact definition
friendship takes an individual. Maybe, it makes me sad.

But don't get the photograph wrong, like how a stranger's smile don't
relate with a new friend, the picture's posted only because I think
it's a pretty one. =P

chill-

Sometimes Unorganised Makes Happy

I guess it's all over;
just this part though.
I'll get places, I know we will.

chill-

Yet I Know A limit To An Ability

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When my foot crosses the line separating the pugilists
from their keepers, I'd be a display winner to place by
the throphies upon my mother's shelf; a home for the hope
my siblings grant her. But what they possess that I don't is
success.

chill-

Today, I looked over the blemish that represents the past and I wondered
if I could ever be proud of the fool that overcame every inch of once-was sanity.
I shouldn't be allowed to weep; yet my heart wrenched when i traced the lines
with my fingers. It was a humid afternoon with the heat and sunny presence;
not quite the darkness that made an effective hiding place. 'Are you afraid' -
resounded the monotonous question-less request. Under my breath, 'I am'.

chill-

Maybe you're right.
Though I rather not admit this.

chill-

What do I know?

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I had a beef ramly burger for dinner today,
salute to mother and father's visit to the Pasar Malam
at Potong Pasir. I adore Pasar Malams and the oily icky
calorie busting diabetes inducing artery clogging comfort
food.

Gasp-

Beef patty between hamburger bread; I guess despite the vegetable
freak I'm used to being, the carbo rush was instant climax and the beef
made me feel carnivorous. I haven't had real meat in ages,
resulting in the lack of iron which hasn't affected my health, yet. =/
I'd pick ramly over Macdonalds, Burgerking or KFC. =O

Then again, come tomorrow and I'll return to vegetables and plant protein.
Today was just the consequence of deprivation. Hahahah.

chill-

Soon, You'll Find It Easier To Keep Up With Yourself.

I sought a perseverance for losing;
not intentionally. But I'll get over it.

chill-

Thursday, July 2

Sunday, June 7

Store Bought Confidence

Sunday, May 31

Thursday, May 21

Saturday, May 16

Friday, May 15

Because Passion Brings No Glory

Thursday, May 14

Monday, May 11

Saturday, May 9

Friday, May 8

Monday, May 4

Saturday, May 2

Wednesday, April 29

Tuesday, April 21

Saturday, April 18

Out The Glass Through A Distance

Friday, April 17

We'll Have Breakfast In Bed

Tuesday, April 14

That's What We Came Here For

At The End, It's Back To Where We Began

Tuesday, March 24

Man Took Salvation Upon Himself

Monday, March 23

No Fishing

Saturday, March 21

Behind Bright Eyes

Friday, March 20

Get Up And Go

Thursday, March 19

How It Feels To Touch

Wednesday, March 18

The Same Feelings

If You Wander Off Too Far, My Love Will Get You Home.

Tuesday, March 17

She Smiled, I Made A Friend. And A Whole Load Of Bull.

Tuesday, March 10

Sometimes Unorganised Makes Happy

Yet I Know A limit To An Ability

Saturday, March 7

Friday, March 6

Thursday, March 5

Wednesday, March 4

Wednesday, February 25

Monday, February 23

Soon, You'll Find It Easier To Keep Up With Yourself.