The Lord provides, so extensively and with exceeding grace.
I have experienced this goodness. Yet I am still apart because of
a sexuality issue that I habour, which was the precise concern that
built a screen between us from the beginning. Who am I to judge
my misgivings knowing that the true judge stands in omnipresent
power before myself, gushing with love and grace and words, words.

Words that I can't accept. My faith is such an irony;
my heart feels unfit for prayer, my words too small to speak.

chill-